Comparison and Goals

I follow a decent number of fitness and food blogs/IGs. They have always been an interest to me and I openly admit to my obsession. I can't tell if it's a good or bad thing.

See, in the fitness world, it is super easy to compare yourself to everyone else. I can't go to the gym without silently critiquing or envying someone. I hate this aspect. I hate that my first response to something is criticism. What is that about?! I mean, let's be real. I am no where near model-status. I have never even caught a glimpse of my abs and considering that I had a quesadilla for dinner, I likely never will. And I'm okay with that! (Mostly) So why do I spend my time judging other people? I don't want them to judge me. I already do enough of that.

So this is my goal: stop critiquing. Be nicer to others and myself. I'm so sick of always beating myself up and hating my body. It's exhausting. Of course that doesn't mean I won't continue to work on changing it. I just need to be better at remembering to love it now for where it is. My body allows me to do some pretty incredible things and I should be thanking God more for that. And remember that everyone's bodies are gifts too. We're all human, just doin' the best we can. We could all use a little more love.

And on that note, here are some more of my fitness/health goals:
-Lose ~20lbs by birthday at the end of October
-Run a half-marathon in 2 hours
-Commit more fully to paleo (and get the hubs on board)
-Stop mindless eating
-Enjoy things more

I complain so much.

Just a warning, I'm feeling rambly and a little mentally incontinent. Two midterms, a test, and a competency exam this (shortened) week. I know some people out there are champion students. They can study for hours on end, making amazing color-coded study guides, flash cards, and rhymes. I am not one of those students. I throw hissy fits, take breaks approximately every five minutes and complain about it the entire time. Don't get me wrong---I love my program and I love learning. I just really suck at studying. It doesn't help that it's like, 85 degrees in the house right now and I haven't had a decent night sleep in days. I'm a little less than stellar.

I'm not excited about Devon leaving for Chicago again on Thursday. Half of July, he's with his mistress. It's dumb. But also I'm really proud of him for the hard work he does and at least I don't have to share the fans with him while he's gone.

I don't know how to handle life without an air conditioner.